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I can't believe it, tomorrow morning paggising ko, 2006 na! Sobrang bilis, as in! Then 3 months nalang, 1 year na kame dito sa Canada. And I'm not lovin' it! Lol.! =)
Anyhoo, shempre dapat may year-ending entry dba?! Hahaha! =) I'll make it short and simple. I just want to thank all the people na naging part ng life ko this year. Year 2005 was almost a blast for me. Well, there are some things that happened this year na medyo ndi ko gusto, but shempre mas madami yun sobrang memorable.
Ndi ko na iisa-isahin yun mga taong gusto kong sabihan ng thank you, 'cause it would suck if i missed anyone! =)
** God, Family, Paula, Nicka, Barax people, college friends, Phraim, Phraim's family and friends, kodigo inc., orientation centre people, "A", Dinah, Ella, Mae, Rachel, Auravel, co-workers ko sa Mcdo (kahit ndi kami close!).
So that's it. Later na yun pics, after ng party! Happy New Year to everyone! =)
I hope I can make make my 2006 even better!
I'm so freaking tired. Like, oh my God, I'm sooo dead tired. My whole body is aching, and today is the first day of my period! Can you imagine that?! It's funny 'cause I can still make a blog entry though I feel like I can't move a single muscle in my body anymore. And that job was only 3 hours! What more if it's 5 or 8?! I'm gonna be 6 feet under the ground when that happens!
I still feel bad. I really have to make it happen. I should try harder to make things work, 'cause if I don't...it's ridiculous
it’s been months
for some reason
i just can’t get over us
and Im stronger than this
enough is enough
no more walkin' round wit my head down
i'm so over being blue
crying over you
and i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done wit wishing you were still here
said i'm so sick of love songs
so sad and slow
so why can’t i turn off the radio?
-neyo
Damn, I knew it! This is going to be hard.
Things are not happening (again!) the way I wanted them to be.
I really should stop.
And that move I did last night, was really wrong. Like, really, really wrong. So stupid! I shouldn't have ask that f*cking question. What am I thinking that time?!
Hay Marie... poor Marie... you must try harder. 'Cause that will really make you happy. I swear.
This is so sad... =(
Merry Christmas to everyone! It's not that bad having Christmas here in Canada. We really have a wonderful time spending it with the whole family. We have a looot of food and presents. I love it! ;D And I hope you also have a great time spending the holidays with your own family!
Christmas Eve Pictures:
Look at all those food! Yum =P
My Family Picture. Aylavet! ;D
Francis and Marie.
Francis, Marie, John and Pam. =)
My brother Francis.
My sister Pam.
Marie and Pam.
Rj, Pam and Francis.
Big R and Big J!
Santa's Elves! Lol.! =)
With my dad! I looove this pic! ;D
John must be really tired from the party when that picture was taken! He came from work pa kase eh. It was like, 3 o'clock in the morning when we took that shot, so just deal with it! 
Cousins-lovely ladies! ;D
Cousins!
Oh Christmas tree! Lol.! =)
Presents!!! ;D
With my sister again!
Sa New Year naman!
Happy Holidays! =)
Before I totally go to sleep last night, I was thinking about something. Actually, I was talking to myself through my mind. Lol! ;D It's kind of a crazy thing to do but who cares? Nobody can hear me anyways! It's been a long time since that "thing" happened. I think it was like 4 months ago. But during those times, my life was been really miserable. I can't show everybody the real me. Like, you can see me smiling and laughing but deep inside, I was crying my heart out. I was really having a hard time to move on and accept the truth that it was over though it never even began.
So last night, I started to think about all the things that happened to me for the last 6 months. I can't believe that it took me this long to realize that it's time to grow. Time to leave that "thing" in the past and stop hoping that something can still happen. Time to show everybody the real "Marie" and I hope that it's not too late. All right... I still love him but that love will not change anymore. What I mean about that is, it will not increase nor be lessen. I think it's time to put an end on it. And most of all, it's time to face the fact that he's gone.
Time To Grow - Lemar
last night i tried but i couldn't sleep
thoughts of you were in my head
i was lonely and i needed you next to me
life is harder since you left
i never meant to do you wrong
and now all is said and done
i hope you won't be gone too long, no
where do i go
what do i do
i can't deny i still feel something
and boy, i wish you could say you feel the same
you've broken the bond
i gotta move on
but how do i end this lonely feeling?
you've gone, i'm here, alone
i guess it's time to grow
i try to speak, but my words never catch the air
like you never knew I was there
take me back to the days when you really cared
can we make love re-appear?
i can't go on the roads too long
and now all is said and done
i can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from
crying time is over
i know i can't control his feelings
if he won't return, then i guess I'll be a woman
and move on
time to grow, and move on
make life better than it was before
time to grow and move on
make love better than i did before
though you've gone, and I'm here, alone
i guess it's time to grow
Now, I'm ready to open a new chapter in my life. I'm ready to laugh and cry again. Try new things that I have never done before. Think about the future 'cause in this time of my life, I should know what are the things that I really want to do about it. I'm not getting any younger as time passes by! Learn to accept some sudden changes that will going to happen without getting scared and hating it. And lastly, I'm ready to fall in love again with a new Mr.Happily Ever Guy. =)
i'm staring out at the sky
praying that he will walk in my life
where is the man of my dreams?
i'll wait forever, how silly it seems
how does he laugh? how does he cry? what's the color of his eyes?
does he even realize i'm here?
where is he? where is he? where is he? where is this beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he? who is gonna take me so high?
where is he? where is he? where is this beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he? who is gonna take me so high?
-natalie ft.justin roman
I really want to thank God for giving me the patience (that I've asked for), especially when I really needed it the most. I know this is gonna be hard for me in the begining but I'm pretty sure that this time, I'm ready to give it a shot. No more "A" from now on. ;)
What a fucking day. I thought things are going to happened the way I wanted them to be. But no... it didn't! I'm so disappointed. Everything's fine... pero bakit kailangan mangyari pa yun? WHY?! Nakakainis when things happened unexpectedly. Sudden changes-- I HATE IT!
I have so many things in mind but I have no idea how to let them out! This is crazy... it's killing me!
** Sorry about what happened at the VP Station a while ago. What I did is so damn stupid. I'm really, really sorry. I didn't mean to do that. I'll be fine tomorrow, I promise.verbaly we agreed it was over
and we were through
i’m trying to compose myself
but I just can’t get over you
i tried to think of you as just another love
in my past that didn’t last
but it’s not that simple
-deborah cox ft. rl
** I really, really looove this song! Hay... =)
are you real or are you a dream
are you true, or not what you seem
'cause i've been here before
don't wanna hurt myself no more oh no
someone who feels for me
who's constantly inlove with me
and cares for me
someone who won't say goodbye
someone who can change my life
i hope its you, i hope its you
will you stay, or will you leave
shall i doubt, or shall I believe
'cause i've been here before
don't wanna hurt myself no more oh no no
how will i know
if you're gonna be here tomorrow
tell me baby how can i say
when there's no other way
but to give you my heart, my love
and trust you from the start
baby don't break my heart
since we’ve been apart i take it day by day
gathering my strength to find a way
but no matter what i do
life’s not the same without you
so many lonely nights i cried myself to sleep
wonderin' what went wrong
wonderin' if you’re still in love with me
every single night i kneel and pray
that God would bring you back this time to stay
wishing we never had to wonder why
missing all the days when you were mine
tell me how can i bring back the time
when all i do is remember
and wish there was no such word as goodbye
how can it be that i can feel so lost
when I’m the one who broke your heart
i guess you’ll never know 'til you lose the one you love
without you i’m half the girl I used to be
tell me what went wrong
tell me are you still in love with me
can a broken heart be mended?
is it too late to get started?
baby there's just no getting over you
i do believe in second chances
no more make believe romances
‘cause no one makes me feel the way you do
when all i do is remember
and wish there was no such word as goodbye
goodbye
10 Firsts:
First best friend(s):
- Liza.
First screen name:
- uhmm...?
First kiss:
- Jay. lol! =)
First pet:
- si Puti.
First piercing:
- ears.
First crush:
- Erick Evangelista.
First music:
- uhmm...?
First car:
- wala pa!
First love:
- Jay.
First stuffed animal:
- i can't remember!
9 Lasts:
Last song listened to:
- I Hope It's You.
Last drink:
- water.
Last car ride:
- last week pa!
Last kiss:
- Reggie.
Last movie seen:
- Windstruck.
Last phone call:
- a while ago.
Last cd played:
- burned cd.
Last bubble bath:
- six months ago?
Last time you cried:
- November 26.
8 Have You Evers:
Have you ever dated one of your best friends:
- no.
Have you ever been arrested:
- no.
Have you ever skinny dipped:
- no.
Have you ever been on tv:
- yup. dun sa mass ng washing of the feet.
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it:
- uhmm... no?
Have you ever had a dream about someone you knew:
- sure.
Have you ever played in the middle of a hurricane:
- no.
7 Career Paths You've Considered:
- chef. =)
owner:
- hotel.
- restaurant.
- resort.
- teacher?
- bank employee.
- parang yun sa CSI?
6 Things You've Done Today:
- sleep.
- eat.
- watch tv.
- surf the net.
- laundry.
5 Favorite Things In No Order:
- mirror.
- computer.
- mga cd ko.
- my blog.
- my jacket?
4 People You Can Tell Anything to in No Order:
- Paula.
- Nicka.
- Kuya Jay.
- uhmm...?
3 Choices:
1. White or black: white.
2. Hot or Cold: cold.
3. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.
2 Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
- umuwi ng Philippines.
- ma-meet si happily ever after guy.
1 thing you regret:
- giving up that "thing". ='(
Isn't this the coolest video ever?! Nice work Jem! I love it! ;D
Sobrang miss ko na yun buong Kodigo Inc. =(
Three days na kong ndi pumapasok because of this freaking cough and colds! For sure andami ko ng na-miss. Nakakainis. Tambak nanaman yun paper works. Nabawasan na nga yun nasa folder ko, madadagdagan pala ulet. Oh well, okay lan yun... I miss doing it naman. Weird enoh?! Sino ba nman gustong gumawa ng work from school? Ahaha, ako yun! =)
Dinah and Mae came to visit me kanina. I didn't expect na pupunta sila. Nakakahiya, 'cause sobrang gulo ng bahay. Eh we have nothing else to do naman dito kundi manood lang ng movie. Pinanood ko sakanilan yun Windstruck. But Mae didn't finish the whole movie though, 'cause may appointment daw sya. Sayang... ganda-ganda pa naman nung movie! =P
Last night pala, I've seen the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show! Nice... the models are so damn hot!
** don't you miss being able to say i love you to someone right before you sleep and having this really cheezy smile right before you drift to dreamland? don't you miss saying i love you to someone the moment you wake up and realizing that having that person in your life also proves to you that there is a God?
ilang ulit kong sasabihin
bigyan mo ng pansin ang puso ko
di mo ba ito nakikita
masdan mo na nagmamakaawa
ikaw na nga
ang hinahanap-hanap lang
ng puso't damdamin
kailan ka magiging akin
ilang ulit kong sasabihin
dinggin mo ang sigaw ng puso ko
kahit konting pagmamahal
araw-araw kong ipinagdarasal
dapat ko bang isipin
na ika'y di magiging akin
paano na ang puso kong umiiyak para lang sayo
kailan ka magiging akin...
i can't stop loving you
i can't help myself
and i can't get over you
no matter what i tell myself baby...