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I see us in the park strolling the summer days
of imaginings in my head
And words from my heart told only to the wind
felt even without being said
I don't want to bore you with my troubles
but there's something about your love
that makes me weak and knocks me of my feet
knocks me off my feet
I don't wanna bore you with it
oh but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't wanna bore you with it
oh but I love you, I love you, I love you
more and more
We lay beneath the stars under a lovers tree
that seems through the eyes of the mind
I reach out for the part of me that lives in you
that only our two hearts can find
Nag meet kme yesterday. Haha, ansaya! Ndi kme dun sa park near our home nagstay, kakasawa kse. Since we both don't like going to malls, sa ibang park nlan. This time, sa may Greenwood. Okay nman. Haha, eh pare-pareho lan nman itchura ng mga park noh. He got a new haircut pla. No comment nlan about dun! He looks like an army boy padin. Pero this time mas kamuka nya yun boss ni Peter Parker! Na-imagine mo na? Ansagwa dba (haha, kailangan nsa Tagalog pra ndi nya maintindihan!)? Dapat tinuloy nya nlan yun kalbo, bka mas nagustuhan ko pa. Pag nman nagcomment ako about sa hair nya magiinarte kaya shut up nlan tlga ko.
We play soccer again! Dinala nya yun ball na bigay ko. As usal, I'm the looser. Pano nman kse ko mananalo, I was wearing slippers! And kahit shoes pa yun suot ko, there's no chance of winning pag sha kalaban ko! Eto pa isa, nka skirt ako! Kamusta nman dba? So ngaun, mdyo nafe-feel ko na yun sakit ng legs ko. 
Ofcourse, ndi rin mawawala ang thumb wrestling. Watch that video clip!
Next week, start na ng summer school nya. And kami nman, we're going to move in the apartment na. So I wonder kung kelan kme ulit magkikita. Sana tlga matangap ako dun sa work pra may reasons ako to go out and pra may money na din. Sobrang saya tlga ngaun, as in!
Affected or characterized by sorrow or unhappiness.
Why do people say or think that I look so sad? I can't understand. Ndi nman huh. But wait.. ndi nga ba?! Gawin ko kya yun ginawa ni Vinnie? Reflect... maybe it can help me.Okay, I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. And I don't want to mention them here (no way!). So many questions are running inside my head. I don't know kung ano yun uunahin kong sagutin. My God, I really need my Kuya Jay right now. He's the ONLY person that can help me. But he's too far away from me at this moment. If I send him a letter nman, matagal yun reply. So I really have to know where can I contact Pau pra mkausap ko na rin si Kuya Jay.Change Topic.I read his blog last night. Most of them are in Spanish, ofcourse. So I used the translation page pra kahit papano maintindihan ko. But still, the ideas I got were not that clear. Cheater daw ako! Okay lan, pareho kame, haha! All I can say is that he is still waiting patiently. And that's good. Ako din nman eh, still waiting for the perfect time to say yes. Si Vinnie merong alam about dun! Don't worry soccer boy, I'm almost there. 50% nalang, I'm gonna be your soccer girl na!
I checked my friendster a while ago before ako nag decide na gawin 'tong entry. I got new messages. Kanino kaya galing? Haha, sakanya. Nakakagulat yung subject: kamusta? Ano nga naman ang nakakagulat dun? Well, kinakamusta nya ko, okay yun. Ndi sya galit sakin, yehey! Oo nga noh? Kelan ba kme huling nagusap? I think last week pa. Nakakapanibago. Andaming changes. Before almost everyday kong kasusap. Then dapat every 9 am/pm nka online na ko kasi bka he's waiting for me na. Every 12th of the month dapat may phone card na kong pantawag. Pag nasa mall kme, panay ang tingin ko sa mga cards, clothes, perfume na pedeng ipadala skanya. But lahat ng yun, wala na. Because of me.
So sinagot ko yun message nya. Then like I always do, tinignan ko yun page nya. Bago yun caption sa picture nya: do you miss me?. Ako nman, automatic sa utak ko, I do. Hala! Namimiss ko sya! Eh ano nman masama dun? Oo nga nman ulet, wala. Dun nman tyo sa profile. Bago din yun who do you want to meet: wt about luv? wt about feelings? wt about all the things that make life worth living? wt about faith? wt about trust? and tell me baby wt about us? Ayan, dito na ko bumigay. Favorite song ko kasi yan. Naalala ko, nun andun pa ko sa Pinas, sa bahay nila kme nun eh, sa living room. Bukas yun radyo. Sabi ko lipat mo sa wave! Sakto, yan yun song na nka play, astig! Since nun nkipag break ako sknya, ndi pa ko umiiyak. Ngayon yun 1st time. Nung nabasa ko yan. Ambigat nanman tuloy ng loob ko. But nkapagdecide na ko dba? Wala ng atrasan.
I went to the same park again yesterday to meet him. 'Cause there will be no chance for us to see each other today and on Friday. Those days are reserved for my job hunting. He was 28 minutes late (in my watch). A new record for him. But that's okay 'cause if he's "waiting", I'm willing to wait too.
Same stuff prin yun ginawa nmen everytime na we are there. Play thumb wrestling, listen to music, tell stories, talk, argue about going to the hot or cold spot, hold each other's hands (forever, haha!), play with his ears, bite his arm, record our voice in Tagalog and Spanish, _______!, and many more.
But, the most interesting part that happened was we met somebody, a kid-- Fernando. I'm not sure of his age but he's from ARMENIA (okay now?!). At first, he was really mean to us! He wants us to leave "his" park. Yes, he is pretending that he is the owner of the $3,000 park (according to him)! He was not so friendly to us and we don't know why. We just laugh at him. Here comes the question "What's so funny?!". Haha! I told Soccer Boy not to talk to him anymore so he will go away but, the two of them keep on fighting. Pra makaalis lang dun, I told him nalang na I want some ice cream kahit ang totoo ay ayoko. And sya yun taong iiwan lahat pra sa ice cream, except for me, nilakad namen yun convinience store across the street. When we came back in the park, the boy was eating with his family. Yehey, he's gone! We're alone now. But wait... uh oh... he's coming back with his bike again! This time, he wants us to be his friend na. Hay, that kid! I don't know what he really want but he is a certified trouble maker! He even showed us his ****! Haha! Anyway, next time we go back in "his" park, I hope he's not there, please!
It was all about the cinnamon flavored gum! ;D 
Beware: That guy is a cheater! Haha, you know what I mean soccer boy! 
Bumalik kme ng school yesterday. Kse pinakuha yun mga naiwang projects. And pinakita din yun mga test papers nmen. Medyo okay nman. Mukang papasa! Kaya lan, kulang kame eh. Wala si Ysbel sa girls then si Arvin and Kim sa guys. Nakakamiss yun school sobra! Syempre yun mga classmates din. Kelan kaya ulet kme maco-complete? Para masaya ulet, sobrang masaya. 
Then after sa school, may plan na pupunta sa house nila Kristine. Incomplete nanaman kse 4 lang kmeng sumama. Ako, si John, KC at sya. Yun iba, may kanya-kanyang reason. Si Miggy, susunduin yun mga kapatid nya sa school. Kasama nya si Arvie, hinatid sya pauwi (huh? baket kya?!). Sila Deny and Riza maghahanap daw ng work. Si Vinnie, ewan ko. Bigla nlan syang ndi bumaba ng subway. Si Jem and Nathan, shempre magkasama.
Sa house nila Tin, we watched movie again like we did in KC's place. Then, dumating na yun mga kapatid ni Krisitine. Andami nila! Ansaya! Sobrang cute pa nun mga kapatid nyang bata! Haha! Anlikot, laro ng laro. Haha!
A - Age: 18.
B - Brand that u really like: Gap and Victoria Secret.
C - Candies or chocolates: Chocolates!
D - Dream career: Chef.
E - Easiest person/s to talk to: My bessie Paula and her brother Kuya Jay.
F - Favorite song/s at the moment: Who Do You Tell by Tamia.
G - Gays or lesbians: Both.
H - Have a boy/girlfriend?: Nope.
I - In-love?: Maybe.
J - Junk food you like: Chips.
K - Kids: Two. A boy and a girl. Twins would be really cool!
L - Longest car ride ever: Every time we go to Baguio.
M - My favorite Sports: Basketball.
N - Number of siblings: Three. My Kuya Francis, Ate Pam and twin brother John.
O - One wish you have?: Better keep it to myself.
P - Phobias: Insects. Darkness. Ghosts?!
Q - Quotes: “Yesterday was just another day. But today, I woke up to the rest of my life.”
R - Reason to smile: Fries.
S - Song (current): You by Athena Cage.
T - Time you woke up today: 9 AM 'cause were going to the Church.
U - Unknown fact about u: Likes to smile in front of the mirror. Weird eh?
V - Vegetable/fruit you hate: Durian and okra!
W - Worst habit: Playing with someone's ears.
X - X-rays you've had: In my knees and feet.
Y - Yummy food/s: Oh, too many!
Z - Zodiac sign: - Gemini.
God is really good. Ndi nga natuloy yun rain when we went to the field. So I have no choice kundi maglaro ng soccer with him. But gusto ko rin nman tlga, haha! Sobrang nkakapagod. Tumatakbo ka na, sumisipa ka pa at the same time. Kamusta nman yun legs ko dba?! Ansaket! Tinuruan nya ko kung pano yun right ways to kick the ball. And it was not that hard nman. He's a good teacher when it comes to soccer. Pro pag Spanish Lessons, 0% ang score ko. Buti pa sya, andami ng alam na Tagalog words. Vinnie took the pictures as what I've told him (astig ka tlga Garfield!). That picture was too dark right?! Haha, inalis ko kse un flash. Go figure it out kung anong meron dyan! 
Inabutan din kme ng ulan after maglaro. Takbo kme sa bahay, medyo nabasa. Pero sya, walking in the rain! Walang pakialam kung magmuka syang bagong ligo.
But may narealize ako, ndi ko parin pagpapalit ang basketball sa soccer. For real.
We went to KC's place yesterday. Eventhough 5 lan kme, sbran masaya padin. Nag meet kme sa Victoria Park Station ng 11:30. Haha, andun na sha! Nadaan ko na lahat ng lines sa subway! Pero 1st time yun sa purple. Pagdating sa station, we waited for KC to arrived to picked us up. Then, he saw an ice cream shop. Eh yun lan ata an food na kinakain nya. Tapos nagrereklamo syang he's getting fat! After 10-15 minutes ata, dumating na si KC and Vinnie. Dumaan muna kme ng grocery to buy some drinks. Then, dun na sa house. We watched movies na ndi nman matapos-tapos. Sound trip si Garfield, and nag internet too. We ate some pasta na hinanda ng mom ni KC. Haha, sbrang saya tlga! Lalo na ko, kse ksama ko sya! Sa 20 ulet. 4 days nanman akong magaantay. *sigh* 
May accident na nayare. A very sticky situation. Sige, linisin nyo yan. Ako? Taga kuha lan ng pictures! Haha! He was making the moves kse eh. Yan tuloy, pati yun juice nadamay! 
After so many weeks of talking and fighting about the break up issues, yesterday was our official independence day. We are free. Free from everybody. Ako nalang at sya. Okay ba yun? Sa tingin ko.. oo. Wala ng guilt, pain, hardship na mafe-feel. Everything is right na. Ang ndi ko nalang alam ay kung ano yun prediction ng kapatid ko. And I don't want to ask him anymore, feeling ko kse ndi maganda yun. Haha, naisip ko nga pala kagabi, what if kung "summer fling" lan 'to? Katulad nun nanyare sakin kay Arce. Ah, whatever! Mukha nman atang syang seryoso. Pero wag prin pakasiguro!
Ndi prin ao umiiyak simula nun araw na un. Ndi ko alam kun baket. Mabigat prin un nsa loob but mdyo nagiging ok na rin kse never nyang ni-let go yun hand ko. Wednesday na bukas. Ndi na ko makapag antay. We're going to KC's place. We'll going to hold each other's hands nanman, forever! And pag ndi natuloy yun rain, bka pagtyagaan kong maglaro ng soccer kung dala nya yun bola. Dapat sa Friday din eh, kya lan Karen is inviting me to watch baseball with them. Ok na yun.
19 hours to go, makakasama ko na ulit si the rest of my life.
woke up today thinking of you
another night that i made my way through
so many dreams still left in my mind
but they can never come true
i press rewind and remember when
i close my eyes and i’m with you again
but in the end i can still feel the pain every time i hear your name
the sun won’t shine since you went away
seems like the rain’s falling every day
there’s just one heart, where there once was two
but that’s the way it’s gotta be,
‘til i get over you
walked through the park, in the evening air
i heard a voice and i thought you were there
i run away but i just can’t escape
memories of you everywhere
they say that time will dry the tears
but true love burns for a thousand years
give my tomorrows for one yesterday
just to know that i could have you here
when will this river of tears stop fallin’
where can i run so i won’t feel alone
can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
i’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
but it’s so hard to let go
This is the first morning na ndi ako nagc-cram sa paggising kse bka inaantay na nya ko mag online. It was our 4th month together yesterday. And it was also the day I broke up with him. Lupet mo Marie! I know that it was not the right time to talk about Spanish Guy but I have to tell him. Nalaman na nga nya ng ndi ko namamalayan eh. Kung ndi ko pa sasabihin ng mas maaga lalo lan magiging mahirap yun situation. So I really have to decide kung ano yun right thing na gawin. Imposible nman na walang masaktan diba? Kahit ao nasaktan sa ginawa ko. And ang magandang solusyon dyan eh mag inom tayo! Haha! Inom lang ng inom. Wala kang pakialam kund ndi mo na malunok, bsta uminom ka lang hangang wala ka ng maramdaman.
This is what I want right?! And ito rin yun gusto nya. But ndi ko ma-feel na masaya ko? No, actually I'm happy. But like him, there is also a part of me na I can't explain kung ano yun nararamdaman. We both did our part na. Medyo na-late nga lang ng konti yun akin. Eh anhirap nman kse tlaga. Iba kasi si Phraim pag nakilala mo. Ibang iba tlga. Mahirap makuha, mahirap din bitiwan. San ako lulugar nyan? Haha, buhay nga nman.
Si God, Sya lahat ang may plano nito. Galing-galing nya tlga. Sure win! Tipong kunwari Pusoy Dos 'to, nasa kanya lahat ng dos. Kahit gaano kaganda baraha mo, wala ka parin laban.
there you were in a crowded room
with someone at least i assumed
how did I know i would fall in love
with you so soon
just one look in your eyes and i see the truth
and i try hard to hide that i'm made for you
but i know deep inside things that we could do
just as long as we're together
but...
who do you tell when you love someone
hoping that someone's in love with you
who do you tell when you love someone
i think i might as well tell you
i can't believe that i feel this way
there is so much that i want to say
i wanna touch you, hold you, feel you, please you
as we're making love all through the night
we would talk to each other
we would laugh and play
we would claim it's forever every night and day
we would share every minute 'til the test of time
in my mind...
i've hesitated much too many times
and i won't let you slip away from me, no
i know you're for me and me for you
But I don't know what to say or to do
so now that we're together i'm telling you
Hay, ndi natuloy yun mga plans for today because of that stupid extra work. He's the teacher, it's his responsibilities to do all that stuffs! But kami yun gumagawa ng mga things na yun pra skanya. Daig pa namin yun nasa detention! We're not even paid to do all those bullsh*t paperworks! Dapat wala pa ko ngayon sa bahay eh. Nasa galaan dapat kme, am I right or right?! Haha! Were suppose to be having fun at this very moment. Yan tuloy, 'tong blog nanaman pinagiinitan ko! And I guess pag nakauwi na sila Ysabel, yun blog din malamang ang lalabasan nila ng sama ng loob.
I really need to get some sleep. Ansakit na ng ulo ko! Ginising pa ko kanina! Laking istorbo tlga nun ni Alejandro! He thought I was crying daw?! Nyee, why would I cry? Obvious naman na I'm trying to get some sleep diba? Okay, bye for now. Lalo lan sasakit ulo ko nito eh!
Today is my 18th birthday (Happy Birthday Marie!). I thought ndi ako magiging masaya. Kasi nga I was expecting na may debut ako. That is kung nasa Pilipinas pa ko. But I'm here in Canada na nga so ibang party yun nanyare.
Sobrang na-appreciate ko yun ginawa ng mga classmates ko. Eventhough ndi na ganon ka-surprise, ok parin. Haha, kayo kasi eh! They gave us flowers, cake, slippers, cap, stuff toy and yung paper na maraming dedication as a gift. Kakatuwa tlga sila. And the best thing that happened was nag stop kami mag-aral just to have a party! Another dance showdown for KC. Siya lan nman kse medyo talented sa dancing!
Kahit papano, naging memorable parin yun 18th birthday ko. Thanks a lot guys! The best tlga kayo, for real!