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Before I totally go to sleep last night, I was thinking about something. Actually, I was talking to myself through my mind. Lol! ;D It's kind of a crazy thing to do but who cares? Nobody can hear me anyways! It's been a long time since that "thing" happened. I think it was like 4 months ago. But during those times, my life was been really miserable. I can't show everybody the real me. Like, you can see me smiling and laughing but deep inside, I was crying my heart out. I was really having a hard time to move on and accept the truth that it was over though it never even began.
So last night, I started to think about all the things that happened to me for the last 6 months. I can't believe that it took me this long to realize that it's time to grow. Time to leave that "thing" in the past and stop hoping that something can still happen. Time to show everybody the real "Marie" and I hope that it's not too late. All right... I still love him but that love will not change anymore. What I mean about that is, it will not increase nor be lessen. I think it's time to put an end on it. And most of all, it's time to face the fact that he's gone.
Time To Grow - Lemar
last night i tried but i couldn't sleep
thoughts of you were in my head
i was lonely and i needed you next to me
life is harder since you left
i never meant to do you wrong
and now all is said and done
i hope you won't be gone too long, no
where do i go
what do i do
i can't deny i still feel something
and boy, i wish you could say you feel the same
you've broken the bond
i gotta move on
but how do i end this lonely feeling?
you've gone, i'm here, alone
i guess it's time to grow
i try to speak, but my words never catch the air
like you never knew I was there
take me back to the days when you really cared
can we make love re-appear?
i can't go on the roads too long
and now all is said and done
i can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from
crying time is over
i know i can't control his feelings
if he won't return, then i guess I'll be a woman
and move on
time to grow, and move on
make life better than it was before
time to grow and move on
make love better than i did before
though you've gone, and I'm here, alone
i guess it's time to grow
Now, I'm ready to open a new chapter in my life. I'm ready to laugh and cry again. Try new things that I have never done before. Think about the future 'cause in this time of my life, I should know what are the things that I really want to do about it. I'm not getting any younger as time passes by! Learn to accept some sudden changes that will going to happen without getting scared and hating it. And lastly, I'm ready to fall in love again with a new Mr.Happily Ever Guy. =)
i'm staring out at the sky
praying that he will walk in my life
where is the man of my dreams?
i'll wait forever, how silly it seems
how does he laugh? how does he cry? what's the color of his eyes?
does he even realize i'm here?
where is he? where is he? where is he? where is this beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he? who is gonna take me so high?
where is he? where is he? where is this beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he? who is gonna take me so high?
-natalie ft.justin roman
I really want to thank God for giving me the patience (that I've asked for), especially when I really needed it the most. I know this is gonna be hard for me in the begining but I'm pretty sure that this time, I'm ready to give it a shot. No more "A" from now on. ;)